Things about me that you might not know…

Today I have decided to post a blog of my quirks dreams and aspirations that I want to admit to myself but will never admit openly or when I do, I only joke about it….
1. I am a sensitive person – no ,no, not the booty humping gay, the sensitive guy, the guy who wants to romance his woman, who wants to give her flowers, buy her a beautiful necklace, rub her down, caress her to make her feel good. That is the type of guy I am.
2. I swear I am losing my memory, I can’t even remember what I have for breakfast. It is a constant struggle. It’s even affecting my school work as my grades slipped last semester, nothing that can’t be brought up in one semester, but slippage non the less. So therefore, I have to work harder this fall.
3. I am fat- Yeap, it might not show as normal fat people, but its there and I wouldn’t mind losing a few pounds. Don’t get me wrong I am still sexy, but I cold also be sexy with a few less pounds.
4. One day before I reach 28, I would like to get married and have kids, who I would prefer to start having grown ‘folks’ problems when I’m dead.
5. I truly hate BET
6. I despise living in Illinois. Now normally I would say America but I have to live in another state before I condemn the whole country
7. Even though there is people around me who say they are my friends, but I really don’t think I have friends in gurnee, who are die hearted enough to go to battle with me. Or stick with me through thick and thin.
8. I am not smart as people think I am. I don’t know where that rumor developed. I just see situations in a different light and I figure it out through the process of elimination and then come up with the right answer. But that’s not being smart? Either case I don’t believe it is.
9. I really don’t know what the general future hold! I don’t even know what exact career path I will chose or what vehicle to get there. Right now uncertainty is the pimp in my life.
10. I don’t know if my girlfriend and I are going to be together after graduation. Yeap I said it out loud. She wont tell me her general plans, because she either doesn’t know it, or doesn’t want to say it, whatever I is, I still don’t know. Here’s my logic for my reasoning. Firstly she doesn’t love me, though there is deep caring and some feelings. Since she doesn’t love me, I don’t think two people can just move to another state without both of them feeling the same way about each other. Also, I think she wants to go out on her own and find her own path in life, in her 20’s, without someone behind her. I think she feels she needs some more growing as she doesn’t want to end up like the *parent*. Now I don’t think about this daily or even dwell much on it, I just like spending time with her, and enjoy the moment we have together. Now you might say oh, why don’t you stay in Illinois for her, well I would, I would go anywhere with her if she finds that ‘perfect’ opportunity *except, Canada (not including Toronto) or California *. I hope we do work out the logistics as I think I found the one.