Til death, do we part?

Last night I was lying down considering what those words truly meant. I asked my self the question everyone has asked themselves when in a relationship, how long are we going to be together? This is the fundamental question for persons in a relationship. After that question is answered *never, then everything is smooth sailing. Well, in life, events happen that makes the most compatible individuals separate, be it distance, other persons or plain realization that that person is not good enough for us, or that person is not in our plans.

When we come to this realization, what do we do? Do we try to force our selves to accept that person, inevitably hating the person, or do we have the courage to talk to that person? Moreover, let them know our feelings?

If we talk to that person and make things better, are we going to last forever? I want to write on this topic because I just spoke to a friend who has these grouses and I like comparing my situation. All and all I am in an undemanding situation, no pressure as to steps beyond our present life together, *though one day I want to ask, would you marry me. Then again, I long for talks of what we can do together in the future, of the prospect of what our future can hold, but I look at it and wonder, do first relationships last. If only one person loves the other and the other person cant see them selves loving the other why do people still stay together?

Normally they don’t and thus, my dilemma. I have stopped playing Russian roulette with my dick, and I no longer wish for the companionship of multiple women, but I have to consider if the other person wants the same thing. I am not opposed to looking at other women and say wow, that’s a nice ass or, I would hit that *saying such things in my mind of course, but what I am opposed to is making the next step in approaching them.

The person I am seeing more than satisfies my every need, mentally and physically and I cannot see my self with anyone else until I die. I have not experienced such death do us part emotions and I like it. I want to be adventurous, travel, experience new things and live my life for all its worth, with that special person.

I do not want to hold anyone back and I do not want to stifle another, nor do I want to inhibit another from life experiences, no matter how harmful it can be, *smoke weed if you feel you want to try it, I care not, go to the bars/clubs and get wasted, I care not, go away on long trips, I care not, make out with another girl, I care not, stay out late at nights, I care not, but what I do care about is you playing Russian roulette with me.